I think it’s funny that you’re trying to get back into my life.  We haven’t talked in ages and all of a sudden you text me out of the blue and ask me if I remember you.  Frankly, no, I didn’t even remember you until you told me who you were.  I’m not apologetic.  I know what you’re trying to do.  I’m not a second choice to anyone.  I’m going to be a priority.  Don’t talk to me because your other plans failed or because you weren’t able to talk to someone else.  I’m not going to be that person.

This week has been too incredible.  I am truly blessed.  I could never ask for more.

What’s with the trashy/slutty choreography lately.  Do these other groups feel that threatened that they have to resort to such slutty choreography.  There are other ways of being sexy without being overly sexy.  Frankly, it’s borderline slut outfits and hair whipping choreography.  I think it’s sexier when a girl knows how to dance and move her body rhythmically and to the beat than to rely on her hair and pretty face.  I’m really not feeling too many of these new groups.  And that’s including the boy groups.

Rule 1: Post the rules.

Rule 2: Answer the questions the tagger set for you and then make 11 new ones.
Rule 3: Tag 11 people and link them to your post.

Rule 4: Let them know you’ve tagged them.       

If you could wake up one morning and suddenly be amazing at playing any one instrument, what would you want it to be? Why?

I wanted to think of something creative and go with bassoon, but it’s not really representative of who I really am.  My second initial thought was to respond with piano and I do love it and I love playing it, but it’s not the instrument I want to play amazingly.  I have to go with the very first instrument I played - the clarinet. I’m Squidward.  I like to think that I’m quite talented when it comes to instruments, but I know I’m more than decent playing the clarinet.  Maybe it’s because it was the first instrument I ever learned to play and I was eager to learn it and maybe some family genes come into play, but I had grown to love playing it and maybe those trophies from competitions count for something.

What song defines your life?

I can’t say that there’s a particular song that defines my life, but there are songs that stick with me throughout my life.  I can listen to old songs and it brings back the exact emotions I felt during that time.  There is one in particular that is special to me.  Alicia Keys’s Like You’ll Never See Me Again.  I was riding home with a friend of mine.  It was a four hour drive and it was during Christmas season.  We were both going home for the holidays.  It felt like it was straight out of the movies.  I remember looking out the window as the countryside blurred.  I remember the cold weather that is so reminiscent of Christmas.  I remember the warm conversations and I remember the friendship we still have today.  That song always takes me back, not to just a Christmas feeling, but to memories long gone that are embedded and make a part of me today.  Other songs include Park Bom’s You and I and Tae Yang’s Wedding Dress.  Those songs were the first songs that made me realize that I was really growing up as an adult and that I was beginning to spend my own time away from my own family (because I am very family oriented and I wasn’t used to such a thing).  I don’t know how those particular songs got associated with growing up and family, but it’s what I think of and feel again when I hear those songs.

Why did you start using tumblr?

I used it as a dating service kekeke jaykay kind of ahaha.  I didn’t use it as an intentional dating service, but at one point, that’s what it seemed like.  Maybe it was my infatuation (at the time) with following intangible people that I wanted to be with or wanted to be or both.  It was something I desired and yet I couldn’t have so that’s probably why.  I’ve had this tumblr for awhile now and I’ve had it before it was even popular.  I actually had it right before they took down the tumblarity.  Eventually, I did start using it as an outlet and where I would put a lot of my writing and thoughts down, a lot of which are saved to drafts.  I don’t post too many personal things on this side of my tumblr now, frankly because too many people are following me now.  I post more personal stuff on my other half.

What is your perfect date?

I’ve thought about this before and I have the same answer every time.  I’m very old fashioned and I love the whole dinner and a movie thing.  First, dinner, then go watch a movie.  Personally, I’m a big fan of horror movies.  Afterwards, grab some coffee and walk in the city under the city lights just talking and getting to know each other.  I’m not asking for anything expensive or for someone to impress me.  I just want to be able to firstly connect intellectually because if that happens, everything else seems to fall in place and I find that person even more attractive.

Do you have a guilty pleasure? (and what is it ;D)

Ice cream ahaha.  It’s always my favorite.  The reason it’s a guilty pleasure is because I don’t have portion control.  I can keep eating it and I won’t even try to stop myself.  I’m actually partially lactose intolerant.  If I don’t eat any solid food before I eat dairy products…well, it’s not a good thing.  But for ice cream, I will eat it even knowing the consequences.

Are you sensitive to awkwardness?

I can sense awkwardness, but I am not necessarily sensitive to it.  Firstly, I’m awkward to begin with so in any kind of awkward situation, I don’t take it as such.  Or maybe it’s because I am awkward that I am dense in those situations.  Whenever I do feel awkward, I always tell myself, “even if I’m awkward, I’ll be okay.  Someone out there will like it.”  I know it sounds kind of vain, but I figured that someone would find it appealing.

Would you rather become an architect or a doctor?

Neither, but if I really had to choose, then I go with doctor.  I only say this because of my mom.  I think she wanted one of us to go into the medical field, but three of us decided not to take that route.  I don’t know what my mom is thinking, but I have a slight feeling that she would have liked it if one of us went in that direction.  Luckily, there is one more sibling ahaha.  He has decided to go in that direction and I’m sure he’s going to make our family proud.

What happened the last time you confessed your feelings for someone?

The last time I confessed to someone about my feelings, we ended up dating for awhile.  But by then, we had a mutual liking for each other.  Or so I’d like to think.  I’m the type that likes to get to know someone before even considering dating.  Actually, I’d prefer if we started out friends on some intimate level.  I completely and absolutely despise those “high school” relationships.  You can’t say, “I love you” after a week of dating.  The word is just thrown around and most people have become so desensitized by it and some don’t even know what it means.  If you have to ask, it’s not love.  

What are 3 weird things about yourself?

I don’t know how to answer this.  Or rather, I don’t know where to start.  I’m completely weird.

• I have an OCD habit of counting to “nine”in my head when I do most things.  But I don’t do a normal count to nine.  Instead, I start from five and count down to zero and then go up to three.  I do this when I’m washing hands or if I’m waiting for something to load and I actually use this method when I scroll down tumblr dashboard.
• Sometimes, when I can’t sleep, I position myself in the opposite direction.  Meaning if my head is north, I do a 180 and my head is then pointing south.  I don’t know why, but I instantly fall asleep after doing this.
• I really wish I were the leader of EXO ahaha.  Someone (an acquaintance) today actually mentioned that I should have gone to South Korea and auditioned.  Actually, a few people have told me that and (I am, in no means whatsoever boasting) that I should at least try it.  Even if I don’t make it to a pop star level, I could still be a backup dancer and I would actually be okay with that.

What accents can you/do you like to imitate?

An American accent ahaha.  I don’t think I have an accent, but my Roommate says I have a slight accent.  I don’t know.  Maybe it’s a mix of native tongue and a Texas drawl.  I’ve heard myself speak for the entirety of my life, but I can’t detect my own accent.

Are you more attracted to dancers or singers and why?

Singer dancers.  Or dancer singers.  I am more attracted to people who have a passion for what they do, whether it be singing or dancing, or even something else.  When I see someone wholeheartedly love what they are doing, then they should be able to passionately love others as well.  Love in the sense, of friends, family, or significant other (possibly me).  I want to be tangled in a passionate love that is relentless and unconditional, just as if you were passionately singing or dancing.

Questions:

• What is your inspiration/where do you obtain your inspiration from or what is your motivation in life?
• Do you believe in love at first sight?
• What is life to you?
• What is your ultimate phobia?
• Are there any memories that make you tear or cry without realizing it?
• You wake up one day and you realize you are the last living person.  What do you do next?
• What gets you weak in the knees, you can hardly speak, you lose all control and something takes over you?  What I’m really asking is what do you find attractive in people?  That one characteristic that will make a person likeable.
• If you were given an opportunity to play a role in a movie, would you rather play the role of a villain who gets at most 15 minutes on screen with exceptional acting capabilities but is not memorable, or a protagonist who stars in the movie but you have no ability to act (and essentially everyone would dislike your acting skills and yet you maintain infamy)?
• You must give up one of your senses - either your eyesight or your hearing capabilities.  Which one will you give up?
• What is the your most selfish wish?  A wish just for you.
• Lastly, should people be allowed to go out in public without wearing underwear?

I’m going to tag (I know some of you could care less ahaha):

• ljloves
• gabeschmabe
• genieni
• ohsweetpassion
• drkfeelgood (I would actually like to know your answers)
• bennnto
• reanelle
• avid readers of eatlowelling
• can someone translate this and send it to Girls’ Generation
• can someone translate this and send it to EXO
• and anyone else that would want to answer these because I’d actually be curious to know.

peternyc:

For uncharted territories in life, it requires a reasonable amount of the unreasonable.

The unreasonable is an advantage mostly held by youth in the form of naivety.

The older we get, the more likely we are to confuse reason and wisdom because of experience and expectations.

So there is the advantage of remaining youthful in actively being naive. We increase the likelihood of doing great things if we aren’t poisoned by common reason.

(via simplisticecstasy)

It seems my luck may be changing.  Or did I ever really believe in luck?  I suppose it’s through my own efforts that I made this happen.  Maybe it was an opportunity that I took that led to this.  I won’t fight whatever this is and just bathe in the moment. 

I woke up a lot earlier than usual.  And I woke up to heavy rain.  It was lovely.  

Nicholas Tse was on America’s Next Top Model!?  I used to be a big fan of his action movies.  From what I know about his personality, he doesn’t make too many TV appearances, so it was kind of surprising to find him on ANTM 

• lypophrenia: a feeling of sadness seemingly without a cause
• drapetomania: an overwhelming urge to run away
• escapism: a mental desire to retreat from unpleasant realities through fantasy
• wanderlust: a desire to travel, to understand one’s very existence
• dysania: the state of finding it difficult to get out of bed in the morning
• sanctuary: a small safe place in a troubling world
• metathesiophobia: fear of change

(via jaeseops)

I watched Colombiana about two days ago for the first time.  I’m watching it again right now.  I had no idea that this movie was actually really badass.  Initially, I thought people had hyped it, but now I can see why it’s a good action movie.  Frankly, I love movies with chicks that fight.  They just make it seem much more badass.  I’m especially impressed with the little girl because her scenes really surprised me 

I just recently found out that One Direction and The Wanted are two different bands….I always thought it was just one big band 

I eat…even when I am full.  What is wrong with me…

My dad forgot his keys for work this morning and asked my mom to tell me to go bring it to him.  I absolutely hate being woken up from my sleep.  I get very irritable and I snap at everyone because of it.  

After I dropped it off, I was listening to the morning radio talk.  The lady host was talking about a 22-23 year old student at Rice University (now you know what state I live in) in the Masters program who she saw shopping with his mom at the mall.  She said the mom was very controlling and was picking out clothes for him and making him go in and out of dressing rooms all the while making comments about what suits her taste and that he would have a hard time finding someone if he wasn’t dressed properly.  

I’ve already deduced that he’s an Asian only because it’s the most probable since I live close and because I have friends that go there.  That’s not to say I could be wrong, but I’m almost 80% sure I’m right.  Anyways, the two male hosts were saying that it was that individual’s fault for not sitting his mom down and setting some basic rules with her.  I already hated where this was going.  They said it was his fault and should have stopped her long before he turned 22-23.  

Firstly, they automatically assume that everyone had the same relationship they had with their mom.  Secondly, they completely disregarded any culture or upbringing, immediately implying that they were raised better than said student and essentially assuming they were raised better than everyone else.

What a load of white supremacist and racist remarks.  I am utterly disgusted at the ignorance.  I was always raised to respect my elders.  I’m sure this doesn’t just apply to Asians, although I know, as an Asian, we are heavily influenced by this standard in culture.  It’s understandable because we’re taught that the older you are, the wiser you are, essentially because of the years you’ve accumulated knowledge compared to someone who is younger who hadn’t learned as much in life or about life.  That’s not to say it isn’t impossible, but it’s where the basic idea comes from, but I digress.  One of many reasons the student may not have talked back to his mom may be because of this.  Or it could be because he had a relationship with his mom that none of us could ever understand and that’s fine.  After all, who are we to judge anyone else or their relationship.  

I think what irked me the most is the absolute ignorance.  If they had given their own experiences or gave more concrete details, I probably would have been more understanding.  The audacity they had to flaunt their white supremacy so blatantly on air also made it that much more sour.  The thing is, they’ll never know the wrong they committed and think that they were never wrong for saying the things they said.  That’s exactly why it’s racism.  There’s no understanding or reconciliation.  Just pure white supremacy flaunting and racism and blatant ignorance.  If you can’t understand this or if you’re not angered by this, then I can’t understand your morals, especially if you’re not someone who identifies as a white person.  You should be just as concerned, especially given the day and age we live in today.

Your text posts really don’t fool me.  I see how much you crave attention.  You’re soo hypocritical.  All within the same blog, you brag about how many people like you and how many people flirt with you; yet, you say you want people to respect you and to take it slow.  I see how much you enjoy the attention.  

Firstly, learn some modesty; boasting isn’t really a good color on you, or anyone else, for that matter.

Secondly, I doubt that many people are flirting with you.  I am more than 80% sure it’s a  miscommunication on your part.  Don’t get it twisted.  Why can’t you just be yourself.  You’d be less annoying that way.  

I was watching Inuyasha earlier and then the ending credits came on.  The song sounded soo familiar and then I realized it was BoA.  Why did I never realize that it was BoA!?  It’s a good song, too.